After my dad died and Kenny left...life seemed a whole lot less worth living. My hobbies seemed dull, I let the garden die and left the craftroom door shut with abandoned projects piled everywhere. Even food didnt taste good or bring me any joy...string cheese and a naked juice made most of my dinners...I couldnt sleep and Lord know how i passed the hours...alone on those sleepless nights. I had my amazing cousin to text (he works nights) and my lap top... I lost weight, spent too much and tried to fill all my time with something ...anything. ... but I didnt get excited about anything. ...
But now that is all changing. Maybe its time healing my wounds, but i think a lot of it is Tanler.
Each day i feel better than the day before...oh I still have my days...at least 2 a week...where I cry about almost anything... but LIFE has a sparkle again. I look forward to going home ( because he is there!). I get excited to make plans, to garden, to fish, to play softball with my brother, go shooting with my mom, to cook, to eat out, to paint, to think about the future...all kinds of things SPARKLE for me again.
I was driving home from work listening to my new CD and heard THIS song... it rang so true for me and my thoughts for the day!
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