I didn't sleep good last night. Usually (before all this) when I would wake up from a fitful night of sleep I would breath a sign of relief that I was awake and bake to my real like not whatever my dreams had been... today when I woke up and thought about my new reality, I just wanted to go back to sleep (even to the nightmares). I wanted to text Kenny, but it was 4:25 AM, so I didn't. Instead I got on my workout clothes and begrudgingly went to Boot Camp.
It was freezing. During the warm up I thought to myself, I am going to quit ... this is my last class. I hate the cold and that is enough justification, besides the fact that I can't really justify the $69 per month it costs me...
Tracy, the instructor is so cute and always inspiring. She always has something interesting to say. She doesn't really like Halloween, but she did make the workout kind of special by putting different exercises inside fake eyeballs and then we had to pick one... ie 1 min of bicycle crunches, 2 laps around the park, suicides (I drew that funny because I just hate running), 3 mins butterfly arms etc.
After class she made sure to stop me and asked if I had purchased the book she recommended. Love must be tough by Dobson and she just wanted to give me a hug. Of course the waterworks started... She shared her story how 2 years ago her husband decided he wanted out of what she thought was their happy marriage too... We talked and talked and cried. Its nice to have a friend who KNOWS the pain. Funny how people are in your life right at the right time that you need them (or they need you in other situations)....
I was feeling pretty 'up' (well compared to how I woke up anyway) and when I got home one of the girls had left a HUGE, smelly, do do on my bedroom floor.... ugh I didn't want to put them out because it was so cold so I locked them in my room (they like to sleep in anyway!)... I think it was Shelby because she was looking pretty guilty, poor girl its not her fault!
Off to work...
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